30 day blog challenge

Anna and me were looking at blogs and I found that I really wanted to do:


 A photo of you, taken today.
02 – Your favourite pair of shoes.
03 – A photograph of your mobile phone.
04 – A photograph of yourself two years ago.
05 – A day in the life, photographs taken throughout your day.
06 – A photograph of a hairstyle you’d like to have.
07 – A photo of yourself, not taken by you.
08 – A photo of someone you fancy at the moment.
09 – The contents of your fridge, MTV Cribs style.
10 – Your dream wedding.
11 – A photo of the item you last purchased.
12 – Your favourite movie.
13 – What you want more than anything right now.
14 – Your current wishlist..
15 – Something you regret.
16 – The most beautiful picture of your best friend.
17 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to.
18 – A photo of your house/apartment.
19 – A photo of your handwriting.
20 – A band/artist not many people know of, but you think should.
21 – A photograph of the part of you that you dislike the most.
22 – A photograph of the part of you that you like the most.
23 – The next plan you have coming up that you’re really excited for.
24 – A song to match your mood.
25 – A photograph of the town you live in.
26 – A celebrity you don’t like, and why.
27 – A photo of your favourite item of clothing.
28 – A cartoon character that you’d love to meet in real life.
29 – The place you want to live.
30 – A photograph of yourself taken today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

I will start as soon as I can :)

Love from me xxx

It's time to try defying gravity

the title comes from such an amazing song :L i love it and i had it in my head for ages yesterday. lately i have been feeling down, and i couldn't really put a name on it but i just was. but i had the best evening/morning, and i felt so happy. there was a moment when i was running down a road in my pyjamas in the sun with my friends being a complete retard, but i felt so happy and free! and i loved it! i had no worries or gravity, i was so happy. and i want everyone to try to feel like that, when you feel like defying gravity, loose all the strings holding you down and fly with your the people you love! thank you for the people that flew with me i love you so much! i am happier now, i would like to apologise for my last couple of blogs, i have been in a bad place, and i needed friends and when you realise that you lost one, it really hurts. but I'm sorry and thank you to the people who got me back on my path again!

love from me xxx

The verdict comes from those with nothing else to do

I have just realised that in my post called "ours" I was actually supposed to talk about a song :L but I forgot.

these are the lyrics:


Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers' silence makes me wanna take the stairs
If you were here we'd laugh about their vacant stares
But right now, my time is theirs


Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you


So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours


You never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles
But I don't care, cause right now you're mine


And you'll say don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours


And it's not theirs to speculate
If it's wrong and your hands are tough but they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith with this song for you


If something isn't yours to speculate about, then don't. There's not a lot more than this song that I can say. But why do people throw rocks at things that shine? If you do, then don't be surprised when next time the rocks come your way. But thank you for when your so lovely to me and we get on really well, because it makes me so high and happy. its just a shame that it never lasts for long :L

love from me xxx

You only have to answer to yourself

You can never beat a bit of s club 7 ;) and this song strangely has a meaning to me, do things that make yourself happy, we all know ourselves and you don't need people who doubt you or make you doubt yourself. if Ollie Barret had listened to all the jocks telling him that he shouldn't be in love then he would never have married Jenny (read love story) maybe if he hadn't married her he wouldn't have had the pain of watching her die but their love overcomes that in every way. I have gone completely off topic :L here are the lyrics to the song:


Don't stop, never give up,
Hold your head high
and reach the top.
Let the world see what you have got,
Bring it all back to you.

Hold on to what you try to be,
Your individuality.
When the world is on your shoulders,
Just smile and let it go.

If people try to put you down,
Just walk on by, don't turn around,
You only have to answer to yourself.

Don't you know it's true what they say,
That life, it ain't easy,
But your time's coming around,
So don't you stop trying.

Chorus:
Don't stop, never give up,
Hold your head high
and reach the top.
Let the world see what you have got,
Bring it all back to you.

Dream of falling in love,
Anything you've been thinking of,
When the world seems to get too tough,
Bring it all back to you.

Na na na X 1
Try not to worry 'bout a thing,
Enjoy the good times life can bring.
Keep it all inside you,
Gotta let the feelings show.

Imagination is the key,
Cause you are your own destiny.
You never should be lonely,
When time is on your side.

Don't you know it's true what they say,
Things are sent to try you,
But your time's coming around,
So don't you stop trying.

Chorus

Na na na X 2

Don't you know it's true what they say,
Things happen for a reason,
But you're time's coming around,
So don't you stop trying.

Chorus X 3

and here is a quote from Love Story:

"Hey, Oliver, did I tell you that I love you?"
"No, Jen"
"Why didn't you ask me?"
"I was afraid to, frankly"
"Ask me now."
"Do you love me Jen?"
"What do you think?"
"Yeah. I guess. maybe"
I kissed her neck
"Oliver?"
"Yes?"
"I don't just love you..."
Oh, Christ, what was this?
"I love you very much, Oliver."

Don't be afraid to ask the question, you don't know what you might find.
love from me xxx

These just made me laugh because they're true ;)

  

Ours

After being upset, then mad, I have just realised that why should I care about the people that make me that upset? Because it doesn't help me in any way, because no matter how much advise you give me that you think I should take. I'm not going to, because lets be honest, you know nothing about me. I will concentrate on the people who actually take the time to see how I feel. I'm sorry that this sounds vicious but I can't help it, these are my feelings and this is my blog.

Now I want to say thank you, to my two beautiful girls, who I love to pieces! Thank you for putting up with my random ramblings veery early in the morning. Thank you for knowing how I'm feeling when even don't. Thank you for being my sunshine every day. From the retarded dancing in my kitchen to the deep chats, thank you so much!
"Hard times don't last forever, but true friendships do, I will always be here for anything you need, even if it's just someone to listen"
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten all the words"

love from me xxx

You with your words like knives...

okay, this morning I was in a really bad place and now i'm out, with help of some lovely people but I have got something I want to say. I didn't know whether to post or not this morning but I actually thought the people who read my blog would care about me and actually want to help me. but let me say this now, my blog isn't for you, if you don't like what I say then don't listen! okay, I was naive but some people are so back stabbing! I don't write on here because i want you to read it, or to make an extravagant showing of my feelings, i write on here for me, to let my feelings out and to hope that the people I love will get to know me a bit better, sometimes to thank them for being amazing sometimes to say my mind, like now.  i dont need people in my life who drag me down, if this is you then take a look at yourself. does pulling me down make you any happier? does it make me any happier? then why do it? because people have feelings, that are not there to let you mock or to make you feel any better. yes, i am 14! but that doesn't  that I cant feel how I want to feel, it just means that i'm not scared of showing my emotions, it has got nothing to do with you. anything. i'm sorry that i thought you cared about me, but how can i even trust you when every time our friendship starts to heal you pull it to pieces again? Every time you stab me with your words and it hurts, then it hurts you. I wish you could see it because in the end this wont be a friendship any more. I'm sorry that i trusted you, I'm sorry that i let you into my world, I'm sorry i gave you another gossiping conversation to have. once again about my life, which I dont even know why i invited you to share any of my feelings, I poured so much into you just for you to go and talk about. but to be honest i dont need it any more, your my friend and you always will be but maybe next time you hurt someone you will wish that you learnt from the first time you hurt me.

love from me xxx